Look at the three flowers you bring to me
Three flowers
Three words
** i love you **
its my birthday today, but it sure doesnt feel like it.. i feel that something has changed.. and its not what it used to be anymore.. months ago,, or weeks ago.. everything was already different.. but i liked the past better, and today kinda reminded me a lot of the past, that i dearly miss.. like my closest friends in singapore who still remember my birthday today! :D and my close friends here who dont even say anything :( I dont want much in life.. but i i think i know whats missing.. its that happiness everyday, when i know that my friends are there for me.. and these 4 years i have just been missing that.. now i know why.. meanwhile all my friends in singapore move on because everyone gets so busy.. but yet im stuck here and i somehow just feel so empty.. resorting to shopping on a daily basis.. just to cure my loneliness.. its quite depressing actually.. and the only thing keeping me going is my music and the saturday MYM where i just feel settled in even though i dont know them really well.. i feel like they are a very caring bunch.. Somehow i just know something is missing from this life.. really miss the past.. but i know its time to move on.. took me ages to figure it out but now i know.. I thought it was over.. i tried to forget it.. but now its coming back all in one shot again.. and i dont know what to do :( i dont know if i should stay back.. or just go ahead with what i want to do.. and i know either way i ll just regret it.. okay im thinking maybe i shouldnt post this.. but i think i should.. and then im gonna tuck my lil sorry ass into bed and wish myself happy 18th! Gdnight!
thinkin' of you at ... 5:05 AM
i have soo many things to worry about.. like that music essays that i have to do if not i pretty much lose 25 marks on the exam.. but i just cant get round to doing it.. :(:( and like that chemistry stuff where iahve to read up everything and cover loophopes.. and what about that spesh sac coming up.. and all the 7th chords in aural.. dominat minor major diminished half diminished.. and all those scales lydian dorian phrygian minor lydian> and what else.. loads of stuff.. i dno im just stressed i guess...
thinkin' of you at ... 2:28 AM
okay i havent been blogging for ages.. but i feel the need to rant, more like to yell.. but this will do for now.. GRR that lil shit brother of mine :( decided to piss me offf soo badly, i had to use the internet, and my stupid laptop has a crappy internet connection so it was 1030.. and him and mum slept at 9pm so i didnt bother waking them up so i just hopped on HIS comp.. which is a one year old pretty much NEW windows XP DESKTOP while i have a 6 year OLD laptop that mum chucked on the floor cos shes an idiot.. so then my connections are all loose.. so my internet is shit! and edmund comes out all of a sudden and he goes.. sis, can you ask me when you use my comp.. what a dickhead.. and then he goes and tell mum.. mum sis dickhead and so he goes and tell mum and then the next day mum jumps at my throat for not giving him enough privacy, respect.. comon hes a 12 year old kid with a NEW computer.. i only had a computer to USE when i was in sec 2!!! what an IDIOT!!! and now its HIS comp> and since when did i get stuck with THIS shit SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT!!! COMP!!!! FUCK IT!
thinkin' of you at ... 2:11 AM
okay i feel the need to rant.. firstly about the SHIT HEAD LIL PIECE OF ASSHOLE brother i have.. if there is such a thing as genetic modification.. i wuold be the first one to put a new gene in him.. cos he doesnt deserve this good family gene.. what AN ASSHOLE! all i did was swap the internet cables over cos he was being a DICK and hogging the internet all to himself so that no one else gets the internet.. so i told him.. im gonna swap them back.. so i unplugged them.. plugged it back into the router.. so now everyone has internet.. (which is the purpose of the router anyway) and he goes off and cries and slams the comp and walks off.. next minute i know my mum comes up to me and nearly strangles me dead... -.-" and plus its normal at home.. cos its a SHARED internet.. if i wanna hog it.. when bro comes in to use it .. i unplug immediately.. so now this little asshole is crying cos his game lagged for about a minute.. and slams the frikking comp down.. and then mum comes in and starts nagging about "respect" and give him 5 minutes.. like WTF hes hogging the BLOODY SLOW and CAPPED internet and you want ME to give him 5 MINUTES!!!! and worst of all.. he plays FUCKING runescape.. which caps the 10GB INTERNET!!
Now secondly.. ever since mum swapped to the super CHEAPSKATE optus and the crappily shit internnet.. its been HELL and the bloooody thing takes soo blooody long to load.. and frikking cuts off every 2 seconds.. and i have to wait for about 5 minutes to come back on.. now this litle asshole gets cut off for barely 3 seconds and then he sulks.. WHAST A DICKHEAD!
Whatever.. im sooo sick of this SHIT atm.. so im gonna just HATE him FOREVER.. cos hes a little piece of SHIT.. and i actually tried to be NICE to him.. *Slaps* what a stupid idea.. was for mum actually so we STOP fighting.. but guess whos creating this fight.. STUPID MUM! so yes.. she asked for it.. im gonna be nasty now.. and i have a reason to... so SUCK SHIT.
thinkin' of you at ... 3:54 AM
sigghh havent updated in ages.. looks like another dead blog to me.. :( hmph!
thinkin' of you at ... 1:03 AM
yay! watched what happens in vegas.. okay show. yeh.. karate time!
thinkin' of you at ... 12:46 AM
finally back from gold coast.. wouldnt wanna say much about my trip cept that it was a lil boring.. thank gosh there was the olympics.. or i would seriously screaaaammm.. one bro was crying all the time.. other bro wanted to buy heaps of stuff.. oh well.. finally over.. now i can get back into the swing of things and get started with my VCE... hate ballarat comp.. what a piece of shit. MEHHH!!!
thinkin' of you at ... 3:11 AM
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