i hate the serps face
i hate physics
and
i hate rushing

you totally wrecked my day!

girls day out today!! :P hehe went to the city today, and i was soo unlucky.. we caught the 1219 train into the city and caught the whole footy crowd too :( well i was okay.. but michelle had people squishing her in all directions and this guys armpit in her face :) haha!! funny.. and then we had lunch at ajisen ramen agaiN! and if i can find the photos.. they shall appear tonight :P and after lunch we bought a cat for munyee! a stuff toy cat.. super furry and super cute! :) and she was soo poofed up!! poor girl.. heheheh and we had icecream! at melbourne central.. yummy! yummmmmyy!!! sigghh mums chasing me off soon! siggh! yes pics are up! hehe woot! and i shall be nice not to post the pic of poor mun yee.. hehe :) off to sleep now! wheee

michelle and her icecream:

michelle hogging the cat :P


and the cat gets its moment of glory..

hmm today, maths day at melbourne uni.. i know it sounds nerdy but it wasnt too bad actually.. morning we had a few talks and stuff one was on how maths is used in films to calculate fluid motion, other one was by this super magic guy! super awesomeee yeh.. :P then we had morning tea.. and michelle couldnt stop stuffing bread in her mouth :):) hehe and it was sooo delicious!! like super duper super duper super yummy! then we had the MIT challenge.. its about occupational health and safety thing where a company (Telstra) it says on the bottom of the sheet :) well the company wanted to improve the standards so they sent people to do audit.. one audit is 4000 bucks and over 5 years theyve spent 20 million on issueing people compensation.. so is it worth it? and they give you last 5 years data and you have to analyse it.. and its on EXCEL and none of us knows how to use EXCEL so duh if the audit score goes up incidence of injuries goes down. thats all we could say and other teams had to EXTRAPOLATE the graph and had graphs of 30 lines from 7500 pieces of DATA!! soo many numbers! and averages and calculation of ratings etcetc.. and we couldnt use excel.. :(:( hmmmphh! now i wished i learnt more about excel from masha jie jie!! cos i hate excel so much now :( hmpph!!! oh well its over.. and i cant believe it the year 11 team won! whoohoo! well they had nick the "computer genius" did the first qn in 5 minutes and we spent an hour and 10.. -.-" about there.. plus chris was busy checking afterwards and we were still out by heaps.. answer was 24 and we only found 17 cases :( sighhh bedtime!

the robot guy along bourke street on saturday night..


flowers!! after the concert :P


my new bag!!

hmm i feel that im slowly losing control of my life.. sure there are happy days but even so.. everyday slowly becomes a drag and gets soo repetitive that i just do the same thing every day without thinking. siggghhhh couldnt even open my eyes in school today :( thats how tired i am.. and so tonight! off to bed early.. i really cant wait for the holidays.. but yet i dont want the holidays to be here because i ll just have to spend more time at home with my MUM and nooo way im gonna tolerate it anymore.. its been kinda alright these 2 days shes stopped talking to me and i like it this way! no more nagging.. or CLaudia DRINK YOUR WATER! every frikking 5 minutes.. or CLAUDIA get off the comp!!! but i know shes gonna get it alll back at me when my dad comes on friday.. shes definitely gonna rant on me and get my dad to scold me well..BRING IT ON... its not like im scared of you anymore.. well i used to be terrified as a kid.. i wasnt the one getting the scolding it was eugene.. and he used to get beaten up soo badly with a belt to his butt and it left soo many marks and sometimes my mum beat him soo hard that even if he didnt do it.. he had to say yes or he ll die.. its just a matter of how tough he is.. and when my mum will stop.. but its been going on for ages and sometimes 2 hours in a row of whacking.. and eugene being a macho kid finally gave in after about 40 whips of the LEATHER belt.. and then i got paranoid that every little single tiny thing that i do will get me into trouble.. well NOT ANYMORE.. you can scold all you like and hit me all you like cos i dont want to live with you anymore.. and i ll rather just die with you killing me. and im turning 18 soon and theres no guarantee that i will still stay in MELBOURNE.. i wanna GO AWAY! somewhere else.. somewhere far far away.. far away from all of YOU PEOPLE.. and i dont want to see you guys again! i have to say i dont really think much of my family.. today for the whole of last week edmund was away.. and i didnt even have a SINGLE thought about him.. today eugenes home late for dinner.. and i was scooping out the rice and i had completely forgotten about him.. trying to scoop out 4 persons share into 3 and he eats the most.. so then the rest of the rice went on my mums plate.. then she yelled at me again.. for forgetting to keep enough rice for eugene.. cos i did leave some in the rice cooker but i thought it was for someone to eat tomorrow.. oh well pffft.. sigghh school was soo terribly boring today.. spesh 2 whole periods.. doing rates of change and chain rule.. what boredom.. then chem even MORE boredom.. stupid equillibrium.. how hard can it get.. one goes up one goes down other one goes up the the other other one goes up too.. and this doesnt affect that but then the other change will affect another thing... draw it all out and you see it sparkling clear.. super simple.. and then english.. transcription of spoken texts.. even MORE boring.. 45 minutes MORE of definitions (We already did another 45 minutes yesterday) and then some analysis of spoken texts.. right now im in a cbs mood just feel like everything will be taken away from me eventually not worth trying cos in the end its USELESS.. the only thing that matters to me now is that little bit of sunshine... but still.. its addicted to the XBOX!!! :(:( lonely.. and sad i think i ll go off now.. :( definitely not in a good mood these few days.. i really cant wait till im 18! few more months to total REBELLION! muahahahahahahh..

and lately ive been thinking about the strongest memory that i have as a kid.. and thats standing in the toilet as a punishment for not eating dinner.. for pushing my food around the plate.. some days i just have no appetite.. and i m sure i was about 8 then.. another older memory. was me locked in my parents room sitting on the bed crying the shits out because i just got scolded.. i cant remember for what.. but i cried for ages till i went to sleep and when i woke up i couldnt open my eyes at all.. even when my mum carried me to my own room.. i knew what was happening i just couldnt open my eyes cos they were soo sore.. and painful and stinging and tired.. wonder if these are all true when i was a kid.. or is my memory changing things..

Now its my little brother getting the shits.. shes stopped nagging at me and eugene well shes trying to.. but edmund still gets all the nagging.. he doenst move his arse quick to do things he ll get nagged yelled and screamed at.. whatever -.-" thank gosh im the oldest.. the first to escape all these annoying things.. sighh

MY ray of sunshinee!! where are you!!!

yes the concert last night was fabbboulousss! awesome :P actually my last finale was awesome.. hehe but this morning was the absolute opposite. apparently the whole of yesterday eugene was demanding for too many things to go out and stuff and at 8pm he wanted to walk out to 7-11 and its like 10 minutes away and mum said no to him.. and then he got angry and mum got angry and then this morning she totally blew.. i woke up at 130pm and lunch was at 2.. she called lunch i sat down and got cutlery.. no ones eating so i just got up and lost my appetite.. then 2 minutes later she yelled that no one wanted to eat.. well i was there.. and after lunch she told us 3 to sit down around the table and started scolding eugene.. about this family being shared and him being too demanding -.-" and then i asked her whats that gotta do with me? and she said that she just wanted me to sit and listen -.-"""" super stupid.. and then i got up and went off to do my work and she YELLED at me to sit back down at the dining table and i yelled back a NO!! and i rarely yell.. but she made me.. i was totalllly pissed because i wont be allowed to go out when im in singapore.. AT ALL!!! that FAT BASTARD... and im not allowed to work for my uncle either.. so now whatever i want shes just gonna take it away.. and then she slammed down the computer and took it and slammed it on the floorr.. and now the speakers and fuzzy so im gonna slap her soon.. and then she flung my pencil case all over the floor... right into my piano.. and i sooo feel like just tipping my piano upside down and dont give a shit about anything anymore.. :( sigghhh everything good she just takes it away.. i dont even ask for ANYTHING at all!!! what a fat shit... and then she kept scolding eugene.. and punishing me for eugenes things.. because he said it was unfair that i got what i wanted and he didnt. well i got what i wanted cos half the time i dont even ask for anything cos i know i WONT GET IT! and he asks every 2 seconds for something new.. sigghhh then i cbf listening anymore and continued to sleep tiill 430.. which means that i slept for about 16 hours today already.. oh well dipshit... im never gonna talk to her again.. she totally blew it this time.. and there goes my respect for her.. out of the window..

hah im sitting here listening to my recording this morning.. and i kinda think that its pretty damm good.. i have the professional recording and the clarity and all that sounds really goooood! omgomgomg.. cept for the few minor slips i m actually quite happy though!! hehehe :) finally happy after soo many recordings i did.. well technically only one stuffed up one for 2 songs so pretty good hah! but my internet is still soo crap! i cant believe it.. sigghhhh back to music i have to write 80-100 words why music matters to me, and research on my piece.. which i have to DESPERATELY go to the state library to find some books and information sigghhh which i dont have the time to :( oh welll looks like google will have to tell me some answers! hehehehe I STILL CANT BELIEVE THAT MY OPTUS INTERNET SUCKS SHIT! oh well... time to sleep concert tomorrow... :( i got a feeling that im gonna stuff up again sigghhh
OHOHOH!! i went shopping tonight with mum and bought a bag!! and its soo nice and a new black tee for the concert well actually it was a thermal.. but still counted hah! well goodnight!

today was the funnest day ever.. excluding the formal night but yeh equally fun! aha spent nearly a whole hour DWADLING! yippeee! and its soo fun yeh.. depends who you dwadle with :P:P:P and school today was kinda okay.. cept for the usual boring classes and all.. i had 2 people say im soo unhealthy today.. just cos i was holding a BIG bag of chips.. foreman said jeez thats a healthy morning tea.. and then dwyer said oh what a healthy lunch.. i actually had noodles for lunch (instant noodles) but the queue at the hot water taps was too long for me to be boothered to get my lunch before going to lunchtime chem class.. YIPPEE! english excursion tomorrow.. and maybe movie on thursday! :D:D super happy.

Well.. it was awesome... and yeh i ll post another day when i dont have my exams tomorrow.. :P seeya!
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have fun!

despite the hectic week mum has finally allowed me to go for my school formal *with a smile* other days shes been like.. oh dont go its a waste of time.. etcetc.. and now she sees that im not studying anyway cos of my headache. speaking of which is a pain in my ass! its like i have a rock in my head and my head is soo heavy and i cant think about anything at all! well thats mainly an excuse not to study but yeh.. i should get going on my unichem :(:(:( still 2 little parts to do and many many worksheets to do which thankfully i l have sunday.. lets just hope the tv people dont change their minds anymore :( or i ll be sooooo pissed! sigghh and good thing too tomorrows rehearsal is at 9! no need to wake up THAT early like 6am :P oh well time to sleep! goooodnight!

yay!! chem exam is over!!! and i only dropped a mark! but i came home today slightly worried and not so happy even though i knew i could do the qns.. sigh i guess i tortured myself too much and i ll be only SATISFIED with a 100% not elated.. well i made myself sit there for an hour, reading the qns over and over again and making sure that it was all correct, even though that only took another 20 minutes.. and i found nothing wrong.. and i was dead bored.. but i still couldnt leave.. i just didnt want to give up like that.. soo.. yeh i tortured myself for practically 1 hour! and i still dropped a mark -.-" oh well i guess thats good but not good enuff for a 50 :(:( oh welll im praying really hard now! i want my 50!!! :D sigghh unichem exam on monday. tomorrow i have the gat, and then study session in the afternoon for another 3 hours, and then saturday mym in the morning at 8am FRIKKING 8 am!!!! and i have to wake up at 6am!! omgomgomg.. and then i think it ends at 1pm.. :(:( then after that home for an afternoon nap and school formal!! yippee i cant wait.. and shcool formals gonna end late and sunday! another filming with mym at 10am-6pm there goes my study day :( sigghhh totally unprepared for my unichem exam.. and i havent done any of those revision questions either.. :(:(:( im gonna dieeee

well... i havent blogged in ages.. cos i am sick! arghhh and then i went to this chinese doctor.. and he was soo accurate in describing the symptoms.. and all my conditions and lastly he said i have a flu.. after all the other non related symptoms.. i went to see him cos of the flu.. the godammm flu! grrrrr
and now its kinda got better a lil.. still coughing :( and running nose a little bit not as bad as yesterday when i hogged half of the tissue box :P

sigghhh oh a whole new topics.. why are little brothers so effing annoying.. its always the youngest of the family thats soo blooody irritating and idiotic.. and retarded of all the siblings.. youngest is the stupidest :P sorry to the young kids out there.. but i swear its so true in this family.. the youngest is the dumbest, most annoying, and idiotic out of the whole family! by MILES! hmph!!!!! fat piece of shit.

sigghhh exams are coming.. and im studying really hard :) hope i get good results! im really pleeeased with my sac marks recently.. for english and spesh especially, chem not so good but still its acceptable.. oh well i shall work hard to top the class in unichem! wheeee :)

hmmm today.. i woke up at 1030 thinking that it was only 8 cos it wasnt so bright yet... so then i went back till sleep till lunchtime.. -.-" and then i did 20qns of chkpoints from spesh, and some textbook qns, and then the practice sac that took an hour and a half.. then i moved on to unichem.. the mock exam.. which took about an hour when its meant to take 3hour.. i guessed i skipped loads of questions.. bout a third of them..not too bad as i thought i would have done.. but then again if i want a good score i have to buck up! esp for normal chem.. i still make soo many stupid errors.. grr how annoying.. it seems like i ll never finish typing this blog post, cos im only using one hand to type.. the other hand is freezing.. and holding ice to cure my pimple :( and my shitty lil brother just farted in my face again.. and it smells like diarrohea hes the grossssest person on earth.. anyway this weekend im quite satisfied.. its the weekend where i did the most work ever.. though it may not sound like a lot.. but it is indeed very mind cracking.. but i did not practise any piano :( which reminds me.. i still cant go for my music camp :(:( booooo.. cos bro wants a ski trip which is blooody expensive.. and worthless.. well i dont find it exactly thrilling its fun.. but not reallly fun..anyway... siggghhh there goes another wasted holiday.. i cant go to music camp, cant do work group in school and end up having to go skiing.. anyone wants to take my place shit! bro farted again.. zzzzzz soooo blooody annoying.. grrrrrr i cant wait for english tomorrow we ll be getting our sac mark back! i wonder how i went.. sigghhh im soo lack of fresh air now.. its all stupid methane gas.. crap crap crap hmph! bedtime!