Mm it feels odd not to talk to you for so long.. is it normal to feel that.. psychologically.. the further away you are, the more i love you? Is that anyway possible? so.. does that also mean.. that i dont love you if youre close to me? (applying that theory in opposite).. hmmm i wonder if that will happen one day.. ive seen it happen to so many people.. eg mum and dad, their closeness after 20 years results in boredom, tiredness, hatred.. and so many more negative feelings.. that eventually what does it end up in? STUPID STUPID horrible fights.. :( so.. worth it to be together? for so long?

I ve all along never really wanted a relationship.. never wanted to fall for anyone.. been always careful around the guys i hang out with.. sure i might have a problem if they like me, or whatever, i dont really care, but it takes me DARN bloody long, or never actually, to fully trust guys, trust what they say, trust that they actually listen, but i can be friends with them. Thats the extent to which me and guys go..

Yet theres this one guy, that has stolen all my heart, i tried not to fall in love with you, but it just happened, feelings got outta control i must admit.. i cant grab hold of them anymore.. so might as well heh.. just sit still and fall in love with my nut =) heh..

Mm.. i missed that stupid nut so much today.. maybe its because hes gotten further away.. not like he can get any further away.. but i cant talk to him for so long.. that makes me so sad :( makes me miss him even more.. stupid NUT! sigghhh so i ended up hugging teddy the whole day.. grouching and mumbling and sighing... and really wanting this and that.. cravings.. thai sweet sticky rice desert =( missing you.. and missing the deserts =P hahahah!

oh well.. i hope my nut is having a lot of fun.. and that hes happy.. cause if hes always happy.. i will be happy for him too =) teddy will do daily reports for me =P hehehe.. soo nut! stay happy okay?

and chipmunk will love you forever. =)