I LOVE YOU, and I MISS YOU, and I WANNA BE WITH YOU. thats all thats on my mind.. oh apart from the I DONT WANNA DO ANYTHING, and i so wanna tell that facilitator to F off.. cause shes effing annoying with all her bullshitttt! sigghh.. i ve been thinking so much, my tears stop rolling, yet i feel the same even when im crying.. i just cbs with the blocked nose and the red eyes.. sore eyes after awhile.. NAH.. EFF that! baby, im done crying for you, but i still feel you everywhere, youre just not here.. and thats not fair.. when people die, i see patients die ( not yet, but i will), i can imagine the pain in their family for losing that person, but it is FIXED, theres nothing to be done about it.. and then after a year, or 2, most of the family still think of the deceased, but in a good way, as in they were there, they shared their lives, but now theyre gone, but its okay, because at least i still have my memories etc..

Now.. it feels like youre gone, i have my memories, but i cant get over the fact that youre gone, because youre still here, you still talk to me everyday, not to the extent htat youre dead, but like.. coma? and all the times that i see you in my dreams, or talk to you on msn.. thats become my LIFE, eveyrthing else.. doesnt matter anymore.. cept that that IS my life, and if i dont pick myself up and keep walking, im SCREWED for ever.. sigghh.. its so difficult sometimes, but i still love you so much =)

Some say youre my other half,
but i think youre my whole
Baby, only you can make me laugh,
I ll love you till youre old =)

OLD because you ll be grumpy later.. hehe and not panic when i m dying =)

LOVE YOU SO MUCH