You know in life, things come your way, whether you like it or not, Things just happen. Shitty things, good things, sometimes awesome things, sometimes just not so good things.. Well.. its all about getting used to it, adapting, changing, and continue life the way it was.. Taking all these into your stride. and keep going. Right?

Haha, over the top a little bit, but when you actually do it, it kinda tones down into a normal level of living life.. and thats where i used to be..

After this holiday, i just kinda forgotten what my life here was.. came back, i was like a lost little goldfish that just came home from exploring the ocean.. suddenly forgot what the tank was like.. and why so small and so shitty.. but actually, i love my tank, just the way it is. And i ve just gotta accept it that the ocean is a great place, and i ll be back soon.. to see my other half in the other ocean.. but still.. now i live in the tank, and im still just as happy =)

Mm.. funny thing is, I have learnt to accept things, accept that you love me, and accept that i love you just as much. Accept that we are so far away, and accept that things cant change (unless i... pass some test LOL) but no thats not happening, and for now.. i aint stuck, its just the way things are, and i have to accept that..

Baby, you say you have troubles accepting, but its really easy.. and i think you ve kinda done it already.. before i accepted things, a little bit of triggering things can make me cry. say i was playing cards with deb, triggers memories.. and everything touches sensitive spots in my head.. and tears just roll down.. uncontrollably.. but now.. i can tell myself, i accept that youre so far away, and im fine.. and thats when i START to accept things.. because im sure if i told myself that a few times i d still break down and cry..

baby, no one can accept things overnight, but i think we re doing just fine =)Love you for being you, and for making me so happy! =)

-C