Lately, I've been blocking out the world around me, content to stay stuck in my room moping around and ignoring the things that need to be done, looking away from to the things that should be seen. It's like I'm creating my own little bubble that nothing can penetrate; no pain, no worries, no happiness. I've turned a cold shoulder to reality, reluctant to face the fact that you're thousands of miles away again.. just as I've avoided thinking about spending 2years apart from you. I know eventually I'll have to face it, but I'm afraid of what will happen when I decide that things can't be blotted out just by procrastinating, and that it's time to come to terms with them. Soon the day will come that I must face the harsh facts, accept the emotions that I'm shutting out.. and feel the pain that will tear my heart out.

Okay I'm starting to sound seriously depressing.. sorry baby =/ (I blame you for making me emo =P) Point is baby, when it comes to accepting this.. I guess you're the one who needs to help me. Coz as you can see, I'm not actually dealing with it either.

-A